Moving the Mac today…. Will have a PC I can use (ick), but with 4 women fighting over it…. Well you know; I’ll update when I can. The house I have lived in for 24 years is starting to echo. It’s not that I have taken everything, I am not that kind of person, nor am I so bitter that I ever felt like doing that; it’s just a lot of the stuff was mine before being married and family stuff. Trust me though he has A LOT more then he moved in with! I have been cleaning for him too, so it does look nice. Everyone is here at 10 am with cars and trucks to move me, I will be back next week to finish cleaning.

Group was rough but real good, on grieving…. Not sure some were happy with me as I started the topic, was crying about leaving this old house. But being I was all most a grief therapist, and getting better for all means learning to grieve…. I talked. I don’t usually show up at group when really emotional, but there I was and I had no problem crying in front of every one. I realized that I had made this happy home…. And he destroyed my happy home… I can stop calling him a jack ass now; been doing that in the last 2 weeks and I didn’t like it. I cry and feel better.

Some people in group cried too, and it was good to see, some had to leave and come back, some left and didn’t come back, some regressed to children; but there was laughter and great hugging after; it was a birchen session! I am betting I will start grieving leaving group soon, when my job starts too, wonderful people in it, and friends. It will be hard but I am a believer that therapy is meant to work until you don’t need it any more. It was hard leaving Dr. McDavids office, and I cried when I got outside, but I felt good, strong, and grateful my HMO gave permission to see him. I felt a lot of respect for him and myself, he is a good man and a great psychologist; it was a honor to have sessions with him.

Well I am now going to shut this thing down, up-plug a zillion cords, put it all back together at my new place and get on with my new life in a new place, with a new job; and trust me I am smiling real big and wide when I typed that. Remember what I wrote last year:

I usually find that when life sucks, it is usually I who suck at life; and I ask myself:
“What am I going to do about that?”

Well I did it, and now I am going to get on with it! Hope you will too, that is my wish for you; just get on with it, this life we have been given: JUST DO IT! The fear and pain always fades away into Joy and happiness. . . and here I go, my bags are all packed, and the sun is shinning bright.

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