My, my, my, so much has been going on! But first off the little guy I put a page back . . . he didn’t make it and I had to end his suffering yesterday. Boy did I cry a lot! Oh and Jamie he was a gray squirrel baby, yes I did get your comment, just been so busy. Big hug to you.

Two weeks and I am out of here! Had the 3 day yard sale this week end. Did’t make as much money as I would have liked, but I had a great time! Last year when we had one after Mom passed I couldn’t handle it at all. My hubby had to do all the talking to people as I could not. This year I had a blast and no anxiety or panic; non of that ! Didn’t mind the wheeling and dealing at all either. How cool is that!

It was so damn hot over the week end and boy do we need some rain here. And you all thought it rained all the time here. . . we are begging for rain now. One of my pen pals, Victor came Friday and hung around and a friend from group too. Had a good time with them and Victor wants to marry me! I politely put him off, but then I think he asks all his female pen pals to marry him. He is something else that’s for sure, but sweet and 75 years old!

My new place is all painted and it’s the carpet this week. My job starts September 19th, and I am excited about it. I also get to go to group a little longer too. So I will keep the house clean for Ellen and help out with Bridget till I start work to earn my keep. I don’t have to worry about the move as it really is amazing how many people want to help me move out of here!

Hubby didn’t show up to help set up at the yard sale one morning… has a little tie up honey I guess, boy was everyone pissed. All we ask was for him to be here to help set up and pack away every day and he blew it! It is really sad as Bridget was so upset and now believes that when I move in with here Uncle Mike won’t be around anymore because of how he is. She is learning to not trust nor depend on men and that men don’t keep their promises. Her dad is the same way, says he will be over then doesn’t come or call. My husband is playing with fire here but is so obsessed with all the sex club stuff that he doesn’t see he may be losing his beautiful niece too. He will have no one to blame but himself, but I am sure he will find some one else to put it on.

I took today off, did stuff for me. Went to group, didn’t do any housework or packing. Just needed a break and the heat is getting to me not to mention the bad air we now have due to lack of rain. I was so tired from the week end that I started to dose off in group! I came home and took a long nap. Maxx came over after work and took me for some ice cream and we talked away from everybody. I am so glad he is my friend, what a sweetie he is. He has been working a lot of over time as he wants to move too, so I haven’t gotten to see him much. I had a real nice day in other words.

I just feel so much better now, way better then a year ago; WAY BETTER! Did I tell you Dr. McDavid released me? Can’t remember. I don’t need therapy anymore, but can still go to group. I cried a little about the good buy, but I walked out of his office thankful, and grateful that I was walking out and into my future instead of being 6 feet under. I will never forget him and all he has taught me; what a great man.

So I have a place to live, I have a job, I have new friends, I have the ability and want to have a healthy, happy life again. So here I go, but I still have the process of moving, but I am dealing with it; not bad eh?

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