It’s been and interesting week so far..... don’t really want it to get any more interesting! Group was rocken’ on Monday! Lot’s of laughing even though hard things were coming up for people. I started to get up to leave after, wanted to go see Bridget... “Where are you going!” I hear. “some of us stay after and talk, you’re staying!” This from the women that last week I found out got her hair done by the same person I do. I stayed.

The door was open and guess who walked by...... Now there wasn’t any thought to it I just found myself saying his name and walking to the hall.... Michael. I didn’t really feel any fear standing there in front of him, well at the moment any way. Mostly I guess because he couldn’t look at me, and seemed to study the carpet as his hands went into his pockets.

We didn’t say much to each other, he asked how I was doing ect. He was so uncomfortable that I went back to my group to chat some more. I guess it didn’t bother me till later, as I did go see Bridget and spend some time with her. Later.... later all hell broke loose.

The little one inside me started screaming in my head: “Make him go away! We don’t have to see him any more!” “I hate him! He’s bad!” Went round and round in my brain. She wanted, of course, to paint with blood. Well that wasn’t going to happen, and didn’t. How is it that seeing Michael could bring this all about? I was a little shocked as the DID has calmed way down since seeing Dr. McDavid. Thought I was done with the Michael thing, guess not. I managed to sleep, more like pass out as I was so tired from it all..... or so I thought.

Woke up feeling real bad and realized I was sick! Had a little stomach bug! Oh I see why things got a little off! You know crackers really suck when that’s all you can eat. I made it to Bridget’s but felt so bad that all I could do was hit the sofa with a blanket as I had the chills so bad. Here I was in a house that had heat (we still don’t), and I am freezing with the chills, how ironic is that! Maxx came over after work and entertained Bridget. I was going to stay over night, and Bridget was real excited that SHE was having the sleep over; I had to go home. bummer.

Yesterday Ellen and Bridget came over bearing ice cream! Hey by then anything was better then crackers! Brought me a little dinner too. I had the ice cream first. Well you know.... “Life’s too short... Had a nice evening by myself, built a nice fire, sewed a little, did the dishes, did a little writing, did a little painting, slept better.

So I am happy to tell you that the sleep over is happening tonight! Going over later today after I get a few things done here. Bridget and Ellen are at the park this morning playing.... didn’t feel up to that yet, but I’m sleeping over! What fun! What fun! Boy does this coffee taste good too! Couldn’t have any the last couple of days. So it’s on to a warm house, good food, and fun for me! Hope you are going to have a fun time too!

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